Stress-free

At perth now.Long stay again.This is my 2nd time now but this time I like to spend my time alone.

Spend the 1st day with a few colleagues,walked to Harbour Town.It was much colder than I expected when there's wind blows.Came back early to the hotel room,wanted to watched tv but something went wrong with the tv.The cute receptionist tried to fix it but still cannot watch,he felt bad so he gave me and my room mate complimentary breakfast to compensate.Slept early,woke up a few times in between to call my love and the bed was quite warm so I woke up to get some air.

Woke up early to go for breakfast with another colleague cos my room mate is fasting.Its a normal buffet english breakfast.Took us about 2 hours to go back up to the room cos we were chatting looking out the street and enjoyed the feeling.It was really a different feeling waking up early to have breakfast in a cold weather country.Its so laid back and relax.Looking at those people walking on the street on their way to their work place,took their own sweet time with no sense of urgency no stress faces no traffic jams and they looked so fresh not like what you can see in KL.Same goes like what I can see in Melbourne the last time I was there.I don't need to be worried that I'm walking alone on the street no one will look at me or give me that kind of 'look' even when I'm jogging or cycling.

I really wish I could migrate to this places.One day.Despite their racism.

Gonna go out alone now..look around myself.Ciaoz

~JeSsC~

I thought you were stronger than this..

This is the second blog I wrote for the night.I have morning flight and yet I'm still awake.The feeling of sleeping with someone and you can feel the distance...is like so near yet so far.

I was told not to publicize my personal life but I just don't know where to let it go.Its like there's a huge gigantic rock in my heart that I could not let go.Everything seems to fall apart seems like falling on me that I cannot take that impact on me.

I downed two glasses of white wine and a shot of whisky and I don't even feel high at all so that I could sleep.

After so long,I thought I wouldn't do that to myself anymore and this time.....I repeated doing the same thing again,trying to control myself hurting myself lesser this time because I know I got someone to live for someone I always think he's the one and someone I want to die only in his arms-only if he knows.

I tried to cry it out I tried to shout.....I just couldn't I don't know why.I wish I could say how I am feeling now out loud but there's no one here to listen to me.

Jessica Chen, I thought you were stronger than this.

~JeSsC~

Shallow!

Been busy for some updates lately or should I say my mind is TOO OCCUPIED by too many unwanted thoughts or things that happened lately.

There is this new friend I gotta know few weeks back when I was at a bar(without my boyfriend).After getting know each other,we add each other into our facebook.After that night,we met back again like after a week or so.

He found out that I have a boyfriend via facebook(not I don't want to tell him,he just didn't ask).Bla bla bla chit chat and all that suddenly he said I'm not a good girl(okay I was suprised).Then I asked why.He was quite reluctant to tell me until I forced him to.He said he saw all my clubbing pictures etc. etc and even read my blog and even my old blog!I was like 'so?' and he said 'aiyah...just be more obedient lah your boyfriend seems like a very good guy and you shouldn't do all this'.So I raised my voice a little and I ask DO WHAT?! and he just kept quiet.

Hello?!who the fuck are you to judge who am I by just looking at my pictures and blogs and my ex-boyfriends?!How you know that I AM that kind of person?!

Then he started changing his words...Oh no lah I think you're not that kind of person also,you're not that bad.

Fuck you lah!What NOT THAT BAD?!knnccb!

Stop stalking me you ASSHOLE!

~JeSsC~

6 months ALREADY!!

Lol...some people must be surprised.

Yeah six months is not long but to those who bet that we won't stay that long; it is long...to them.Jealous.

Me and my love celebrated our sixth month at Prego@The Westin Bukit Bintang once I came back from Bangkok.Not six months actually,its seventh month to be exact.And there's more months even years to come.

Actually,it was just an event that we find to celebrate because we got a bottle of complimentary wine that's gonna expire in August.So why not.

*always loving each other*

~JeSsc~

It was awesome!

Shop!Shop!Shop!Till I really dropped.If I stay there any longer I think I will sell my car,used up my credit card limit and withdraw all my savings and just to shop.

Angel : Are you CRAZY?!

Devil : Why not?

Me : *after a few seconds of consideration* Of course NOT!

*puffff... the devil disappeared and angel left with a wide grin*

Yeah...that was me when I went Bangkok with my mum for 3 days 2 nights.Initially I planned to go alone but mum don't allow.The sad side is I'm being controlled and the bright side is I won't be announced bankrupt at the age of 22 years.

Went there with one luggage bag,came bag with two and I still got two extra shopping bag I brought just in case that is not used.So that's why....it's not enough!I need to buy more!But too little time...sigh

Plan plan plan...this time planning to go with my love so that I won't have to carry my handbags and shopping bags.Cant wait till September...

With lots of love,
JeSsC.

WTF!

While waiting for my hubby to pick me up at kl sentral just now,I went to get myself a cup of corn to eat,there's this malay lady cut my queue when I'm walking towards the stall,ok nevermind!So when this malay stall lady scoop out the corn into the cup for the malay lady who cut my queue earlier,the cup was so full that you have to actually forced the cover to close and when comes to scooping the corn to my cup,it was just nearly full.What the hell is this?!you wanna do also don't do until so obvious right?!WTF!!!

~JeSsC~

RED

Hate it when they honk while driving pass me!Hate it when they open up their car windows to say 'hi' or 'amoi' or some stupid crap!Hate it when they whisper to their friends in front of me and give me the 'molesting me' stare!Hate it when I get so much attention when i'm in my uniform especially with my very red lipstick!

Just came back from Ipoh yesterday.After a week of relaxation mode,sort of,cos I 'm there for 3 days then came back to work for 3 days and went back there again straight after work for 2 days,I can't adjust back to my working mode.

This month is gonna be a busy so-called travelling month for me because I'm off on the weekends.Going back to Sitiawan this weekend.After Sitiawan gonna go for a week of A330 class which I no longer excited about it.Other than I got night stops that I can shop for things that I can't find in Malaysia and a little bit more in my pocket every month,I would rather not doing A330 aka Air Asia X.And not to mention 3rd time slide drill  2nd time CBT and exams.Arggghhh!Stress just to think about it.

NO!no!no!

Don't think about it now....let's go get pretty and attend the AXE fragrance at Ministry of Sound Euphoria!

Signing off

~JeSsC~

It feels good...

When I open the compartment yesterday morning to keep my things before I start to work,I found a make-up bag and a note book in it.Without thinking twice I open the note book and check who's the owner but no name written so I just assumed.Good enough when I checked my bb upon arrival at Miri I saw an email.There's this colleague who was asking about the make-up bag.I texted her when I finished work.She was so happy to know that I kept it for her.She told me that she cried when she found out it was gone.She keeps thanking me and wanna give me something in return,she even want to see me in person to thank me.If it was other people,she might not even get it back.

To be very honest,I never helped someone who will thank me until like this.For the very first time I felt appreciated,really and I felt touched too.Just a simple thing like this.I was amazed.

With lots of love,
JeSsC.

Tick tock tick tock.....

I have stopped blogging ever since I started flying and now after a year plus I decided to start blogging again for whatever reason I don't really know..Whether or not I will have any readers I will still blog.

So what's the latest update?

I just got back from Melbourne last two weeks,not for work but for leisure.It was great.I was not really in a good mood during the trip,pms I guess and probably because I missed someone so badly wishing that he were there with me,all the time.Went there with mummy,auntie nancy and my sister.Visited Puffin' Billy,wine yards,Williams Town,Sovereign Hill Balarrat,Queen Victoria Market,Chaple Street and the city itself.

We were procrastinating whether to go Great Ocean Road  but ended up didn't coz we all agree that it is only nice if we drive there.I definitely going back there again.I love the place!Is just a matter of time either work or leisure or both.I'm not going to blog much about the trip but I did upload the pictures taken at facebook so enjoy!http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=215342&id=675957593&l=0c63b49872

So what's up with my life during the time when I'm not blogging?

Hmmm...where do I start?well busy busy but not really busy but tiring I guess.Flying point to point,sometimes have to work more than 14 hours a day,flight delays,nasty demanding passengers to handle and so on.But I still manage to go parties,clubs and meeting a lot of new friends for the 1st half of the year and I'll never forget that I met the most important person in my life now on the 2nd half of the year,my boyfriend my Bi my Mr.Lum Wai Fong =P

The best thing that ever happened in my life.Other than that everything that happened I believe it happens for a reason either good or bad.

That's all for now.

Signing off,

JeSsC.